mood: Empathy, Sorrow, Anger!
listening to: is there are song about drowning?
IN THE STREETS & OPINIONS
I know someday God will touch my shoulder and say, “See, I told you you were over him”, because today I didn’t think about him at all… but last night I was so overrought - I couldn’t even talk online with anyone… without shoving my thoughts & ideas down their throats. That’s not me at all… I offer opinions, suggestions, questions - but I don’t demand to be paid attention too… That’s too high school for me… I think I finally grew up, realizing things like that makes you take a step back, to look at the big picture… To look where you always wanted to go, but never did. To see what is really out there, not just what you wanted to know about. Look around our world… not always a nice place. Just because I have been sheltered from many things, doesn’t mean I don’t know they happened and feel for those that it happened too… but I don’t have a lot of empathy for anyone… not even me.
Crying & sulking over things will not change them… and seeing as I am unable to help in this case Katrina’s victims - what is the point in watching the tv wishing you could help them, but knowing you can barely help yourself. What good would that be to them… I would be just another burden to carry. I hope God is watching over them, and maybe he could get the president to get our soldiers home to help with the rebuilding & rescuing the thousands who are now homeless.
Imagine that… happening in your life… Imagine any terrible disaster happening to you and your family, what you do? think before you respond… how would you feel? What would you have lost that was most important to you? Would you stay and help rebuild or would you turn away and get as far away as you could in hopes you could forget what you saw, and felt… and start over a new life somewhere else.
I am imagining it… I am imagining it was me there in that hurricane that killed many, and left everyone homeless… my mother is in a wheelchair, would she have survived such a disaster, probably not… and then what would I do… I love my mother dearly. My father would be out in the hurricane trying to help others… that’s the kind of dad I have. Ok, so the water is up to the counter in our house, my cat hates water… would she survive this ordeal… God I hope so, she is as smart as a person… I love her… All my clothes, my computer, the tv, the microwave - everything ruined. Hey but I am alive. But, now that everything I cared about, thought about, worked for is gone, do I really want to be alive… No I wish I had gone with my mother to heaven.
Couldn’t the local jails help some of those people… I know it wouldn’t be great being in jail, but you do have a roof over your head, food in your tummy and a place to rest your head at night… I know this because I have been in jail. And if they took in homeless people in one of their buildings - they wouldn’t have to have such tight security on that building, wouldn’t that be better then letting babies die in the streets.
Now I live with my elderly parents… who are constantly at each others throats, because they are getting older, and not able to do the things they want to do so badly - puts them at odds with one another… sometimes I have to referee… it’s like watching toddlers fight over control… When I leave the room, I say could you please play nice for awhile.
Trying to lighten the mood in our house, NO WE DIDN’T HAVE A HURRICANE HERE… NO THE WATER ISN’T DROWNING ANYBODY… But in some ways we aren’t much better off then those people the hurricane hurt.
1st you have to realize that they didn’t cause that hurricane to happen, it was a freak of nature… nobody set fire to the building, or suicide bombed the bldgs… it was a natural disaster, and they happen and will continue to happen periodically during your life-time and the life-times of those after us.
2nd It may take time to rebuild, but those people who have been hurt, are homeless - will get better… they situations may take time to change, but the government will help them rebuild or move them to a place where it is safer to live. Those people on TV, are angry because the president won’t come to them and speak to them… but we all know about our president… and we know he isn’t a people person… We will be lucky when the vote for president comes again, he will not even have a choice to run… his time will be over.
3rd Those people had no choice but to leave their homes, their valuables… those people didn’t have to decide if they wanted to move, or if well today would be a better day then yesterday - if we could just stop the rain. They are out of choices… They are living on pure adrenalinin… something my mother and I live on most days… because of the chronic pain in our bodies - many times we must bear up under the pain just to get through an hour, a day, a week, a month…
Did those that die, know they were gonna die? Did that seek salvation from the lord as their bodies were swept away in the flood? Did God come to their aide, did he hold them close to his side while they passed over?
We don’t know, nobody knows… it frustrates me that this God we are to believe in… can care so much about his people, yet allow so many terrible things happen to them… these horrible things don’t just happen to bad people, they happen to faithful church-goers and Christians… They happen to everyone. No one is absolved of terror, treason, torture, disaster, flood, famine, fury… And the persons it hurts, depends on largely the place the disaster struck.
It isn’t always the same area, if it was - we would know that something was wrong with that area, and we would stay away from it, but what appears to be a bright sun-shiney day, can turn into a torrential down pour & flooding overnight. Why does God Keep Letting This Happen To Us?
If you think about it… it isn’t a nice thought, but I bet I am right. If famine, diseases, deaths, demons, disasters didn’t happen… the earth would have too many people in it. I don’t believe God Chooses those he takes away from the earth with each new disaster or accident - I believe some people just are in the wrong place at the wrong time.
But I do believe that the world will never stop having such travesties happen… instead of killing the entire world, as he did with Noah and his ark… Bad things happen, but it thins out the group… Imagine how many people would live on this earth if no one ever died? Where would we go, how would we live?
Chaos in the streets, in trepidation everywhere, homeless wandering aimlessly around… the hungry begging in the streets… and the old people, the people who have lived full lives.. What if they never died? The’re bodies cannot handle any more stress, they are unable to move freely without a cane, walker or wheelchair, some can’t even get out of bed… but to force them to stay alive is not fair.
With every door that closes, another one opens… it may not be today, or tomorrow.. But if you have faith - you will find the open door… or you will see a closed door - and you will knock - because in all that we do and say… someone has been here before us and done the same damn thing.
I have no right to feel sorry for myself, and for the situation I am in… It could be a lot worse… we could be down in New Orleans living on a roof, with my mother’s wheelchair tied to the antenna so she don’t float away. No baths, no food, no drinking water, yes - that indeed would worse than anything that has happened in my life, although I know what it’s like to be homeless, tired, and hungry… I been there, done that… and lived through it - to see the other side… the side where you want to help people but have no means in which to do so… so tonite, I will pray for those less fortunate then I - and God I hope your listing because a lot of people have a lot of questions for you, don’t make us wait to til we die to find the answers…. Let us have them now, so we can know what to do in the future, so we can the course of events if we have to… teach us your ways lord, keep us healthy, safe, and those struck by famine, disease, disaster - may god carry you when you cannot walk.
